everything has changed

and i left america

hi friends,

it’s been a long time, and i apologise for my absence.

i want to be frank about what’s been going on in my life, and fill you in on what’s been happening.

there’s a lot going on in the world; but this is the thing, there always has been. the US has always been acting the way that it intended to, except now, the clown show is on full display, no longer lurking in the shadows. the curtains have flung open, and we’re seeing for ourselves the true cold blooded nature of the US empire as it fights its own collapse.

in the last couple of years, especially since the genocide went full-force in Gaza (though, again, the genocide and displacement of Palestinians has been happening since 1948), everything has changed. as it should have. people became aware of US and zionist war crimes, and started to connect the dots of history, especially when it comes to US intervention, political coups, and downright brutality. on top of that, it’s been a LOT of unlearning, because the US empire undoubtedly has the most sophisticated propaganda network, dedicated to spreading its capitalist hegemony, and smearing the nations of the Global South who refuse to be controlled by them.

but Palestinians and their resistance broke all that propaganda too.

the truth has been revealed. and it is sickening that it is at the expense of over 73,000 human beings in Palestine, who have been murdered on their own indigenous land.

this is the most urgent and harrowing pain that is happening in real time, along with the crisis in sudan, congo, and america’s bewildering intervention in venezuela. and yet, doesn’t it feel absolutely insane that everything, somehow, our lives, must continue? while we continue, keep connecting the dots.

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i don’t want to make any of this about me, but part of the explanation of my absense is that i’ve spent most of my time the last few years keeping my head down and learning. really learning. connecting the dots, and seeing the web of violence that US imperialism and white supremacist colonialism expand before my eyes. it’s an extremely important time to learn, for all of us.

i’ve had a lot of imposter syndrome speaking about anything, or feeling like i’m capable of relaying any of the information that i’ve been learning in an eloquent or accessible way. but i feel ready. it’s a new year, 2026, and i know this needed clarity is dawning on all of us on how we can move forward and shed the necessary light on the current crisis of humanity; western imperialism and capitalism.

some of you may know this: i moved to china. i was going through visa dilemmas in the US and my decision was to leave my life in new york for good. i miss my people out there so much, and they were all so supportive of my move. but ultimately this decision was necessary, because i’ve been able to see the alternatives to a western capitalist society, to feel my brain become rewired, and to unlearn the parasitic imperialism that intoxicates us through so many different mediums.

i’m hoping to return to longform this year, so i can further share what i have learned, not just from the books i’ve read or the classes i’ve attended, but also the life experiences i’ve had. i’ve started a youtube channel, which i’m hoping to update every week, because i really hope to share these life experiences with you, and maybe something within you will shift too.

there’s so much to learn/unlearn about china, and as a chinese person i feel that it is my obligation to understand clearly, and more properly, the truth of my motherland. i love it here so much, something resounds deep within me, and i see that a socialist future is not only possible; but here. however, i never have claimed that china is a perfect utopia and think it’s absurd to make those claims. it’s a rapidly developing country of 1.4billion people, a country that was semi-colonised, also ravaged by feudalism, capitalism and occupation. i want to be realistic and disciplined in my dialectical materialism (learning through the material conditions of the world around me) and share with you the china that i see and reflect on. i elaborate more in the video below.

i know many people are not as lucky to leave the US as i am and so i name, again and again, how grateful and lucky i am. and i promise to use this life-changing decision to share the wisdom that i am lucky enough to absorb everyday. it’s small interactions; like being asked if i’ve eaten and then being offered food by every villager i meet, dancing with uncles and aunties in public spaces every weekend, or being able to use a public restroom with ease. being treated like a human being.

thanks for sticking with me through all these years.

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here is a list of resources/books that helped me learn what i know now:

1. Western Marxism by Domenico Losurdo

2. The Tricontinental Institute for Social Research

   1. Everything, but specifically this study on Poverty Alleviation in China

3. Fanshen by William Hinton

4. The Jakarta Method by Vincent Bevins

5. Upstream Podcast

6. Perfect Victims by Mohammed el-Kurd

7. Washington Bullets by Vijay Prashad

8. Bury the Corpse of Colonialism: The Revolutionary Feminist Conference of 1949 by Elisabeth B. Armstrong

9. Culture and Imperialism by Edward Said

10. Blackshirts & Reds by Michael Parenti